Closer

May 8th 14st 8lb (-2 lb last week, -3lb this week) 5 st 12lb/82lb so far Its getting closer the magic SIX STONE mark...soooo exciting, ive gotta get this two pound off next week and hit this mini mile stone and then the week after try get another 3 to hit ONEDERLAND!!!! I feel extremely positive right now, my hard work is haing positive effects in all aspects of my life and I'm loving that, I cant remember the last time I weighed this weight, we are talking a good 6 years ago easily. Temptations arent even temptations any more...my will power is so strong, ive never known my determination to be so vibrant and powering me through all this. I keep seeing everything like the track at the stadium...one more lap...one more, keep pushing one more....trying to get an athletes mentality, i know the body is a way off yet but its mind over matter, have to stay positive and focused. discovered a love for rowing again, it was my least favourite cardio due to my rubbish co ordination but both that and my balance have got so much better Strongman training is insane and i get to start training with the boys in a few weeks, its gonna be brilliant!!

Smashing through the mini milestones

April 27th 14 st 13lbs - 2lb loss this week 77 in total YESSSSSSSS mini milestones done, get to 5 st 7 loss AND go down into teh next stone, i'm 9lbs away from getting into ONEderland too which will also send me into a six stone loss...thats the next mini milestones :) I also managed to shave 1 min 52 secs off my 5k time im now sub 30 (29 mins 50 secs) , really enjoying running again, definitely prefer it outdoors rather than the treadmill, the treadmill just bores me lol but I really want to get my time to a decent time, dont want to show myself up at my Race For Life event in July. Food's going ok, trying to change it up a little bit, chicken is getting expensive going to have to try and cut a deal with a local butcher me thinks lol New Cardio playlist now featuring #willpower by will.i.am the whole thing is just perfect for a running playlist...go grab it :)

No looking back

20th April 2013 - 15 st 1 lb - 3 lb loss this week 75 lb in total Annnnnnnnndddd it's all good again, back back back, its nice to feel human again and get myself back in the zone properly, back to training and eating properly. Got to run out on the athletics track today and it felt really good, cant wait till im picking up some decent times on there but for now I'll take it as it is Ran my first proper 5k in a while this week 31 mins 42 secs...need to get sub 30 mins asap, thats my aim for my Race for life in July. I think I need new trainers again, theyre starting to feel funny so really should invest in new ones...helllooo Nike outlet lol Its been an interesting week , ive been getting a lot of messages asking me for tips and advice or generally just really nice congratulations messages , ive seen some people i havent seen in a long time and they didnt recognise me, that still feels a bit weird cos I still see myself as that bigger person, catch a glimpse of me and remember it's ME in the reflection and it still freaks me the hell out aggghhhh Would still like Nike or Adidas to read this and send me sme new sports gear...would really appreciate it!!!

dont let the bed bugs bite!!!

Friday April 12th (weighed on Weds) 15st 4 stayed the same So I've had the most ungodly throat infection and general feeling that totally ko'd me for 10 whole days. My eating wasnt on plan the whole time and there was zero exercising but somehow I'm here still the same. I couldnt wait to get back in the gym, i genuinely miss my training now. Im just so glad that now im in the right frame of mind that I can just jump straight back into living and eating how I should be. I ate bread last week and it tore me up, I really didnt enjoy it at all, definitely not worth it....and even reading that I just typed that is crazy as I used to live off so much bread...once you stop having things you truly get to see how bad they are for you. In other news this week I'd like to thank Paramore for their kick ass new album which has just hyped up my cardio playlist. I dont have any owrs of wisdom this week just thought I better to check in....to myself...cos no one else reads this lol

ONE OF THOSE WEEKS

01/04/2013 15 st 4 - stayed same (72lb loss so far) Its been one of those weeks, worked hard but stayed the same, i'm kind of getting used to this happening every now and then. Its been a hard week as I've got a throat infection, pretty certain sugar filled medicines aren't going to help diet wise but its necessary to stop the fire in my throat. No idea what the scales will read this week but Im really proud of myself....didn't touch an easter egg...for the first time in my 34 year existence and that right there is a major achievement...i don't NEED and easter egg, I don't NEED to treat myself, my treat is sticking to this plan and ensuring that I continue on my journey in a positive manner. Been an interesting week, Im getting asked a lot of advice on what im doing training wise, how im taking care of myself diet wise and its just confirmed to me that i really want to be a personal trainer and nutritionist once ive hit target. I really think I can help others on their journies...so yeah that's the plan ....world domination and that lol EDIT: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1ya5bp3wHv4 wicked little ab workout im doing twice a day

What would Jillian Michaels do?

Weds 20th March 15st 4lbs (2lb loss this week , 72 in total) So Im happy as its the first time in a while I've actually lost during TOTM so that's a blessing. My training has been great although Toby nearly killed me off with strongman training on Saturday...it's become apparent that I hate tyre flips, every time I'm losing the will to continue with them I just hear Jillian Michaels screaming in my ear "IS THAT ALL YOU'VE GOT, YOU"RE PATHETIC" and off I go again. Speaking of the biggest loser, the latest season has been amazing and a big congrats to Danni Allen. I knew from day one she would win purely because of her attitude, I love her determination, she really touched a nerve with me , we are very similar in our all or nothing mentalities. So next mini targets are lose 5lb to get down into the next stone, lose 15 lb to hit wonderland, im giving myself till the end of April for the 15 thats 5 weeks so 3lbs a week SHOULD be achievable, im gonna give it my everything!! So finally its pay day which has meant a lot of prep and planning. I've set myself aside £200 a month for food. £100 is my big shop where i buy all my meats and big essentials. I bought a chest freezer so I can freeze all my meats and frozen veggies. Then i have £25 (£20 if its a 5 week month) to buy fresh veggies and fruit each week. This is really helping me as money is tight and I have to budget everything :( SO in the budget this month is SPorts gear as I can no longer turn up to the gym in what Im wearing , its just not right to continue to wear the gear i wore 5 stone ago so off to sports direct and nike outlet I go...just wish sports bras werent so damn expensive :(

I demand a recount

Weds 13th March 15 st 6 (70lb loss 5 stone) Ok so last week I couldnt count....THIS WEEK ive actually hit my 5 stone mini target and so impressed as my hamstring is still playing up despite the gentle exercise and stretching...physio on payday me thinks So I'm trying its of new recipes this week BBC good food has some wicked low GI recipes, I made their nutty chicken curry and its delicious. Also used my new slow cooker so happy I get to come home and hey presto dinner is served :) still being called "skinny" and its still annoying me...yes ive lost a load of weight but I'm not skinny at 15 st 6 am I??? I am getting a lot of people notice my loss now,but you know when you just cant see it the same as everyone else? ....Is THAT really me now???